Monday, April 07, 2008

13 Signs You're Falling In Love

I got this from a friend's social site (and I think this is from Cute. :)

13. You CAN'T stay mad at him/her for more than a minute or two. You actually have to try HARD to stay mad.
12. You'll read his/her IMs OVER and OVER again.
11. You'll walk REALLY slow while you're with him/her.
10. You'll feel SHY whenever you're with him/her.
9. While thinking about him/her, your HEART will beat FASTER and FASTER.
8. By listening to his/her voice, you'll SMILE for no reason.
7. While LOOKING at him/her, you can't see the other people around you... you can only see THAT person
6. You'll start LISTENING to SLOW songs.
5. He/she becomes ALL (that) you think about.
4. You'll get high by just his/her smell
3. You'll realize that you're always SMILING to yourself when you think of him/her.
2. You'll do ANYTHING for him/her.
1. While reading this, there was ONE PERSON on your mind the WHOLE time.

Saturday, April 05, 2008


There maybe many times when you view a moment in life in a different perspective. Some may view it as a common event, for some it would be a crowning glory, and for you it may be one of the most special times that it is worth describing and embibing in your diary. But unfortunately, for some it is as normal as flicking dirt off one's sleeve. Then you get to rethink if it really is worth jotting in your diary.

I have been wanting change eversince I set foot on college and got to strengthen my principles in life. I have been too strong in one thing and too mushy in another. I can say I really value my career and education a lot - this area in my life not only pushes me up but also is an important vessel for my family. But on the other hand, I have been too soft emotionally (I can remember one friend of mine teasing me as "emo-girl" - he wanted me to be less sensitive. I really believe that I have already changed, even if just a notch, and improved this side of me. But I am afraid that in the end, going through all these emotional turmoils and by keeping on wiping off the moisture, my heart would end up like a rock. I hope not.

Everything has a reason, but unfortunately you make the choices to create such meanderings. A laugh, a cry, a twinkle of the eye is force enough to create a pathway in life. Moments of hurt weakens one to the point of contemplating if one still has the strength to stand and go on. But despite all these, rivers of tears quickly erode barriers and create new paths - giving you enough inspiration to get on your knees and push oneself up.

This is the beauty of life. You fall - yet deep inside you know you have the strength to pick yourself up, gather the pieces and build yourself up again. It maybe tiring, but the desire of completing that big picture puzzle that we call life inspires us twist and turn the pieces - and hope that on one area it will fit. And if it does, how triumphant and beautiful life can be.

Wednesday, April 02, 2008

Late Night Blues

Owkieeeeeeeeee... it's 1:16AM Spring Break. Just cannot sleep. Been hoping one of my friends would drop a message and say hi and I just cannot go on and message them because there really is a big possibility that I will just drop and sleep. I don't wanna have the face to message them and then leave them. Why on earth am I writing again? It's been two writes for this day and that is kinda unbelievable for me. Why on earth have I forgotten who I am? I mean, I was the person who loved art so much and who spent most of her time writing. I just came to realize many things when I customized my site today.

I really cannot say I was the one who customized my site because I just copied a CSS script from someone who made this script. Am I making sense? Because I felt like it would be just a waste of time if I were the one to make the css script to customize my page, I just gone on and Ctrl+C and Ctrl+V. Wow. Technology. Then I got curious and visited the site of the person from whom I kinda burglarized. Then I saw that she was just 17 (now I know many people have talent even from such a young age) and I then realized with underlined, boldened and capitalized thoughts that I am a computer scientist who is currently taking her masters and has been awakening her artistic side over the years and I'm just grabbing scripts just because I feel tired to make my own. And not to mention it is spring break. (And now my brain keeps shouting that it really is tired. Come on.) Well I'll just try myself for the next few days and relive my css days from college and try to create one of my scripts and get familiarized with photoshop. Now maybe I should start with that.

Now I really got to sleep. Will continue with this tomorrow. ;) Nyahaha.


Okie.. updates. Do I really need to write this? Well I just felt the urge to write something coz I'm feeling like this site is running dry. Hmmm.. what should I write about? About spring break? Nah.. my spring break's been pretty boring. If only I have lots of money, I could go tour round the country. But I have to think of saving my allowance for the time that I will be applying for a job. So what else? Yeah. Good news (well for me that is)!!! I got a driver's permit this afternoon (got only 2 mistakes in the written exam) and now I would be able to bash cars into others' cars! Joke only. Nyahaha. I hope papi will come back from Dominican Republic and buy a new car so I can bash his car (joke again!).

Winter makes us realize the beauty of spring. If winter isn't there, then spring would just be taken for granted - like we take the weather in the Philippines for granted. It is like always spring + summer there. Here, we get to appreciate small sprouts of grass, the burst of a flower and the hop of a rabbit. Signs of spring. Handfuls of happiness. Fun.

Oh btw, I seem like I've put myself into death penalty. Will be taking Advanced Software Development next block and saying hello to everyday quizzes and pure sheer torture (or should we call that a challenge?). Still waiting for my MPP grade. I hope I get to see the first letter of the alphabet. The second letter would still be welcomed with open arms.. just add a plus after it. ;)